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Stuck (Don’t Wake The Baby) (4th August 2020)

Don’t wake the baby

I want to make lunch 

 Don’t wake the baby

   I want to get up

   Don’t wake the baby

   My phone’s about to die

   Don’t wake the baby

 My arm is stuck

  Don’t wake the baby

 I removed my arm

 Don’t wake the baby

   I woke the baby 

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My First Time Breastfeeding In Public (5th August 2020)

  #IDidItIFinallyBreastfedInPublic #WellItWasTheWaitingRoomOfTheDoctorsAfterBsCheckUp #AndNoOneWasThere #TheReceptionStaffWereSittingBehindPerspexOrWhateverAtTheOtherEndOfTheRoom #AndIUsedThePushchairToBlockTheViewJustInCase #AfterAWhileIRealisedThatThereWasACCTVCameraOnTheWallToMyLeft #Lol #OhWellItIsQuiteDiscreetOnceYouGetThemLatchedOn #IDoNotThinkBHadTheBestLatchButItWasTolerable #SheFedFor6MinutesThenFellAsleepAndSleptInHerPushchairForTheNextCoupleOfHours #ThatNeverHappens #SheSleptThroughDinnerAndThenWokeUpOnceWeWokeHerUpForHerNextFeed #ThisWeekItIsNationalBreastfeedingWeekSoIGuessItWasAGoodWeekToDoIt #IDidHaveABottleOfExpressedMilkInACoolBagButIThoughtItWasMaybeMoreOfAFaffThanBreastfeeding #TiagoSaysSheSeemsToBeABitMessierWhenFeedingFromABottleTheseDays #IAmNotSureIfItIsJustHerGettingExcitedOrWhat #TiagoSeemsMoreConcernedAboutItThanIAm #IWillMentionItTomorrowWhenSheGetsHerJabsDone #IfIRemember #INeedToBuildMyConfidenceWithFeedingHerInPublic #IAmSureIWouldHaveDoneItLoadsByNowIfThereWasNotAPandemic #ButMaybeNot #WhoKnows #SometimesIGetStressedOutButSheOnlyHasVeryBasicNeedsRightNow #SheIsCurrentlyLyingBellyUpOnTiagosChestHiccupping #SheLooksQuiteSleepyButIGuessTheyAreKeepingHerUp #SheHiccuppedALotInTheWomb #HopefullyTheyWillStopSoonAndSheCanSleepALittle #SheIsTooCute #IStillCanNotBelieveThatWeHaveABaby

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Armpit Fungus (6th August 2020)

  #ThisIsProbablyMyMostGlamorousPhotoToDate #PleaseMayIIntroduceYouToMyArmpitFungus #BHadHerFirstSetOfJabsTodayAndIHadACheckUp #YesWeDidGoLastNightForBsCheckUp #TheWomanWhoDidMyCheckUpCouldNotDoBsAsSheHasNotDoneTheRelevantCourse #WeGaveBSomeParacetamolBeforeHandLikeTheDoctorSaidToYesterday #SheHadAnOralVaccinationForSomethingThenA6In1VaccinationInOneLegAndThenMeningitisBInTheOther #TheDoctorSaidTheParentsUsuallyGetMoreTraumatisedThanTheBabies #InMyHeadIWasLikeNahIWillBeFine #ThenPoorLittleBLetOutAWailThatIHadNotHeardBeforeAndIFeltAwful #IThinkWritingYesterdayAboutTheAwkwardnessOfBabyTalkMadeMeGetOverMyself #AsIJustKeptTalkingAndTalkingToBAfterwards #IWentToTheWaitingRoomWhereIComfortedHerAndFedHerALittleWhilstWeWaitedForMyAppointment #IGotCalledInAndIShowedHerMyArmpit #IProbablyGotItFromBeingSweatyAllTheTimeAsBreastfeedingSeemsToMakeMeSweat #ShePrescribedACream #SheCheckedMyStitchesAndIHaveABitOfScarTissueThatSheSaidMightSoftenInAFewMonths #TheySnaggedABitOfSkinWhenTheyWereStitchingMeUpAndIHopeItDoesSoften #ISaidIHaveBeenFeelingEmotionalAtTimesButIKnowItIsWhenIAmMyMostSleepiest #SheSaidToCallIfItFeelsLikeSomethingThatIsNotSleepRelated #AndThatBreastfeedingIsANaturalFormOfContraceptionButItIsAdvisedToUseAnotherFormToo #YesterdayOneOfTheWomenWorkingThereSaidHatsOffToMeForBeingPregnantAndHavingABabyDuringThePandemic #ISaidHatsOffToHerForHavingToLookAfterTwoKidsDuringItAll #IHadNotBeenPregnantOrHadABabyBeforeSoIDoNotKnowAnyDifferent #IWentToPickUpMyPrescription #ItWasMyFirstTimeInAShopSinceMarchAsTiagoWentTheTwoTimesBeforeToPickThemUp #IBoughtTwoBagsOfDiscountedPopcornAsTheyWere10PEachAndILoveABargain #SoPopcornWasMyFirstPhysicalPurchaseThatITappedMyCardForInAVeryLongTime #IBoughtThemMoreForTiagoButIAteABagWhilstGoingForALongWalkHomeWithB #BSleptThroughMyAppointmentAndAllTheWayHome

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I Am Worried That Someone Will Say I Am Holding Her Wrong (11th August 2020)

  #IWasAwareThatIHadNotTakenAPictureInSomeDays #ISeemToDoMoreShootsTowardsTheEndOfTheWeek #ButIThinkIAmPutOffTakingPicturesWhilstITryToCatchUpWithPostingThemOnMyBlogWhichIsBad #BWasAsleepInHerPushchairBassinetAndIKnewIHadToFeedHerSoon #SoISetMyStudioStuffUpReadyAndTookAFewTestShotsWithoutHer #IFeltComfortableUsingTheLightsAsIKnewSheWouldBeFacingMe #IThoughtIWouldWriteTheHashtagsBeforeSheWokeUpButSheWokeUpSoonerThanIThought #IDidTheShootAndThenIStartedToPutStuffAwayWhilstFeedingHer #ThenShePutHerHandOnMyChestSoIPutEverythingBackAndDidSomeMorePhotos #IAmWorriedThatSomeoneWillSayIAmHoldingHerWrong #IWasSweatingTheWholeTimeAsItIsSoHotToday #PlannedToGoOutForLunchWithBToACoffeeShop #IEndedUpGoingTwoHoursLaterThanPlannedButItWasNice #ASignSaidToWearMasksIfYouAreNotSittingDownButIWasTheOnlyPersonWearingAMaskAroundTheCounter #ThisMorningWeWentToTheHospitalAsBHadToGetHerFeetLookedAt #SheWasBornWithPositionalTalipesWhichIThinkIsMoreWidelyKnownAsClubfoot #IHaveFinallyStoppedPronouncingTalipesLikeItIsPortuguese #TalipesIsACommonProblemApparently #BWokeMeUpAt5ThenWeBothWentBackToSleepAndMyAlarmDidNotGoOff #IWokeUpAndWasStressedOutAndTurnedToTToTellHimToGetUpButHeWasInTheBathroom #WeHadHalfAnHourToGetUpAndOut #SomehowWeManagedItButWeWereStressedAsWeHadNeverBeenToThatHospitalBefore #IEndedUpOnlyBeingACoupleOfMinutesLateAsInsteadOfAskingForDirectionsRightAwayITriedToFindTheDepartmentMyself #TheLetterWasAddressedToBabyAllenWhichTiagoSaidWasRudeButThatWasWhatSheWasCalledWhenSheWasBornAsMySurnameIsAllenAndIGaveBirthToHer #ISatDownForAMinuteAfterGivingHerFullNameAtReceptionThenWeGotCalledThrough #WeGotThroughTheQuestionsQuickThenAWomanCheckedHerFeetAndWithinAFewMinutesWeWereDone #SheThenSpentAgesJustTalkingToBBeforeWeWentToFindTiagoToGoHome #ThingsAreDefinitelyGoingBetterWithBreastfeedingThoughYesterdayWeWentToDinnerAndBottleFedHer #TheLastTwoMealsSheHadBeenAsleepTheWholeTimeWhereasThisTimeSheWasAwakeButItWasNiceToBuildOurConfidenceWithBeingOutWhilstSheIsAwake #IJustFeltMoreRelaxedBottlefeedingAndWeCouldShareItButIDoWantToTryToBreastfeedMoreInPublic

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I Don’t Like Wearing White (13th August 2020)

  #WellThisWasNotWhatIHadInMindForMyShoot #IPlannedToPhotographMyCannulaScar #ButITookATestShotAndGotMoreOfMyselfInThanIWanted #AndIQuiteLikedHowItLooked #MyWhiteNursingBraAgainstTheWhiteWallAndAll #IDidNotPlanToBuyWhiteBras #IHaveACoupleInBlackAndIWantedAMoreButTheyHadSoldOut #TheyAreComfortableSoIJustThoughtScrewItAndBoughtThemAndThoughtMaybeIWillDyeThem #IDoNotLikeWearingWhiteAsIAmQuiteMessy #IDidNotEvenGetMarriedInWhite #IDoNotWearWhiteVeryMuch #SoGettingBabyClothesInWhiteWasABitScary #ThoughAtTheMomentStainsAreComingOutQuiteEasilyButIHearThatIsNotTheCaseWhenWeaningStarts #IGuessThisIsAlsoAPortraitOfMeAsTheMotherOfATwoMonthOld #TimeFliesBySoQuickly #ItIsSuperHotAtTheMomentHenceWhyIWasSatInMyUnderwearForTheTestShotThatLedToThisImage #WeHaveSomeOfThoseMakeYourOwnIceLollyTubes #ThereAreACoupleWhichHaveBreastMilkInAsWeThoughtItWouldBeASmartWayToFreezeItAsTheTubesAreReusable #AndIHadMadeSomeCoconutWaterOnesAsWellAsSomeAppleJuiceAndOrangeAndGrapefruitJuiceOnes #HoweverASmartThingToDoWouldHaveBeenToPutLabelsOnThem #AsEarlierIThinkIHadSomeBreastMilkThinkingItMightBeCoconutWater #ThoughTheBreastMilkTastedBetterThanTheCoconutWater #IGuessItIsWeirdToBeWeirdedOutByDrinkingMyOwnMilkWhenMyBabyDrinksItAndItIsHomemade #ToBeFairIFindItMoreFunnyThanAnythingElse #AndIHaveHadABitOfMyMilkBefore #WhenIAmLeakingAndItSeemsLikeLickingItOffMyFingerIsAQuickWayToGetRidOfIt #ItTastesQuiteSweet #TheseHashtagsEndedUpGoingSomewhereThatIDidNotThinkTheyWouldGo #IThinkAnyoneWhoSaysTheyHaveNotTriedTheirOwnBreastmilkIsProbablyLyingAnyways #BSeemsToLikeItSoItCanNotBeTooBad

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This Is Supposed To Be A Picture Of My Cannula Mark (13th August 2020)

  #ThisIsTheShootIHadInMindButIEndedUpTakingPicturesOfMeInMyWhiteBraWithMyBreastPadsShowing #IAmUsingUpMyThrowAwayOnesAsIDoNotLikeMyWashableOnesAndNeedToBuySomeOtherOnes #IWasSupposedToSayAllThisOnThatPictureButOhWell #Cannula #IHadToCheckTheSpellingAsIWasNotSure #IThoughtItWasCanulaOrCandulaOrCanelaOrSomething #IKeptCallingItACatheterAtOnePoint #AFactIsThatCanelaIsPortugueseForCinnamon #AnywaysIHadACannulaPutInMyWristWhilstInTheDeliverySuiteBeforeIStartedToPush #IGuessInCaseTheyWantedToAdministerDrugsQuicklyForWhateverReason #ItEndedUpStayingThereForQuiteAWhile #MaybeUntilTheFourthDayOfHospital #ItGotReallyAnnoyingAndIKeptKnockingIt #ThereWasABigScabButItCameOffAndNowThereIsAMark #ICalledItAScarBeforeAndMaybeItIsOrMaybeItIsNot #TheReasonWhyIDecidedToPhotographItIsItHasBeenHotLatelyAndItIsStartingToItch #MaybeThisMeansItIsHealingButMaybeItMeansItCaughtTheSunABit #ItIsNotThatVisibleInThePhotoThoughIGuess #WellItIsTheOnlyMarkOnMyWrist #OtherVisibleMarksOnMyHandAndWristsAreMolesWithABirthmarkAlsoCreepingIntoFrame #BDoesNotSeemToHaveAnyBirthmarks #IHaveAlwaysLovedHandPhotosSoIGuessThisFitsWithMyLove #AllThePicturesFromTheShootLookVerySimilar #ThereWereMoreThanNecessaryToGoThroughButTheyWereEasyToDeleteAsMyHandWasInTheWrongPositionInMostOfThem #NotCentralEnoughOrTooFarDownOrTooHighUp #ThisIsTheProblemWithPhotographingYourselfByYourself #ThoughIAmSureALotOfOtherSelfPortraiturePeopleAreProsWithItAll #IAlsoHadNotPhotographedThisCannulaMarkWhichIsWhyIWantedToPhotographIt #MaybeItWillGoSoonOrMaybeItWillHangAround #INeedToHaveALittleNapBeforeBWakesUp  

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Second Family Portrait Session (16th August 2020)

#IHaveWantedToDoAnotherFamilyPortraitSessionSinceNotLongAfterWeDidTheFirstOne #AndThatWasOnThe28thOfJune #ItSeemsEasierToDoThingsIndividuallyThanAllTogether #BSleptThroughTheWholeShootAndHasJustWokeUpNow #SheDidALoudCryLikeSheDoesWhenSheIsDreamingInHerSleepButThisTimeItWokeHerUp #WeUsuallyWakeHerUpToFeedHerIfItHasBeenAWhile #ButTheOtherDayAndTodayItWasImpossibleToWakeHerToFeedHer #AFriendCalledTodayAsHerBabyHadBeenAsleepAllDayAndSheWasConcerned #WhichMadeMeFeelBetterAsBWasDoingTheSameThing #TheyBothWokeUpAfterAWhileAndWereFine #AHealthVisitorCameACoupleOfDaysAgo #BHasPutOnMoreThanHalfOfHerBirthWeightAndHadNoConcerns #SheSaidToRingOurGPForAPrescriptionForSomeCradleCapShampoo #IRangAndTheDoctorHadNeverHeardOfTheOneSheRecommended #ButWeGotItSoThatWasFine #TheHealthVisitorAskedUsIfThereWasAnyDomesticViolenceInOurHome #ItSeemsAnOddThingToSayOutLoudToBothOfUs #SurelyItIsSomethingYouAskIndividuallyOrSomethingButIGuessItWouldBeDifficultAndIGuessSheHadNoConcerns #SheWouldHaveUsuallyVisitedUsBeforeButItWasDelayedDueToCovid #SheIsOnlyAllowedToVisitTwoHouseholdsADayWhereasBeforeSheWouldVisitThreeOrFour #IRushedToThePharmacyLaterOnAsIWasWorriedTheyWouldCloseBeforeIGotThereButTheyHadExtendedTheirOpeningHoursSinceLastTime #AMemberOfStaffPeeredInsideHerBassinet #SheSaidBsEyeLookedSwollenAndIWasLikeYeahIKnowIAmMassagingItDailyAndItIsCommon #SheSaidYeahItIsCommonAndThatBothHerKidsHadItAndIRelaxed #TheOtherDayAManWasHoldingAToddlerAndSheSaidBaby #SoIOpenedUpTheBassinetCoverSoTheyCouldSeeHerFromADistance #ButTheGuyStoodSoCloseToMeThatIDidNotFeelAbleToTalk #HeProbablyThoughtIWasReallyRudeButItFreakedMeOut #IDidNotWantAFamilyPictureInOurUnderwearButItIsSoHotAndThatWasWhatWeWereWearing #IWasNotPlanningToUseALightButItWasTooDarkToNotUseOne

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My First Pushchair Injury (18th August 2020)

#INeverKnowWhatToCallBsVehicle #TheWebsiteIBoughtItFromCallsItAStrollerButIThoughtThatWasTheSameAsAPushchair #JustHadAResearch #APramIsForNewborns #APushchairIsForWhenTheyAreABitOlderAndCanSitUp #AStrollerIsSuitableForToddlersAndYoungChildren #ABuggyCanMeanAPushchairOrStroller #WellItIsAStrollerWithABassinetOnItRightNow #IAmKeepingTheTitleAsPushchairAsStrollerSoundsLikeIAmStrollingAbout #WhichIWasToBeFairButNotWhenIHurtMyselfOnIt #WeWentToMeetSomePeopleFromOurNCTGroup #WeHadOurCourseOnlineNearly4MonthsAgoAndWeTalkEverydayInTheMumsWhatsAppGroup #ThereAre8BabiesIncludingB #5OfThemWereThereAndItWasTheFirstTimeIHadMetTwoOfThem #ItIsFunnyAsIFeelLikeIHaveMetEveryoneInRealLifeButIAmStillYetToMeetThreeOfThem #ThereIsAbout7WeeksBetweenTheOldestAndTheYoungestBaby #WeMetInAParkAndJustStoodAboutChattingBabiesAndTV #ForTheRecordWeAreMainlyWatchingSellingSunsetAndThisIsUs #IBreastfedInPublicForTheSecondAndThirdTimeYesterdayAndTodaySoThatIsGood #TheGroupHasBeenGreatAsItIsNiceToKnowThatOtherPeopleAreGoingThroughTheSameThing #EspeciallyWithBeingPregnantGivingBirthAndHavingANewbornInAPandemic #EveryoneLeftAndTBAndMeWentForABitMoreOfAWalk #IThinkMyKneeHurtsFromWalkingOnSoMuchCobbledFloor #ItWasTheFirstTimeTakingTheStrollerInTheCar #SoWeHaveNotPutItUpAndDownMuch #IWentToPutItDownAndICouldSeePeopleBehindWalkingCloseBySoIFeltUnderPressure #ItWouldNotSeemToFoldSoIPushedItABitMore #AndThenSuddenlyItWentAndIGuessItCaughtMyFinger #IHaveNotChosenTheImageYetButIThinkIWillGoForOneWhereMyFingerLooksABitLikeASnake #OfCourseAsSoonAsIHurtMyFingerIThoughtIWillPhotographThisLaterAndSoIDid

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Crying Because She Smiled At Me (19th August 2020)

  #IUsedToCryBecauseSheDidNotSmile #NowICryBecauseSheDoesSmile #IHaveCriedThreeTimesBetweenHerFirstSmilingAtMeThisMorningAndMeOpeningThisDocumentToWriteTheseHashtags #ObviouslyTearsOfJoy #WeAreAllSatOnTheBedAndBIsAtMySide #IKeepLookingDownAtHerAndTryingToMakeHerSmile #MyNewFavouriteThingsIsJustSayingAEIOUAtHerAndOnUIPutMyFingerOnHerNose #IReadThatBabiesLikeToLookAtYourMouth #MyFavouriteSoundOfHersIsWhenSheCoos #AndTheShapeThatHerMouthMovesIntoToMakeItIsSoCute #IAlsoJustOpenMyMouthWideAndMakeAShortLaughingSoundWhichSheSeemsToLike #SheLikesToGrabOnToThingsNow #WeHaveALotOfMuslinsAndWeUseOneWithHerCarseatAndTheOtherDaySheWasHoldingItAllTheWayToTheCar #AndSheIsFallingAsleepNowWithOneInHerHand #MaybeItIsTimeToGiveHerTheComfortBlanketWeHaveForHer #SheJustWokeUpAndMadeALittleSoundSoILookedOverAtHerAndMadeMyMouthBigAndSheSmiled #IFeelLikeWhenSheIsInASmileyMoodICanSayAnythingAndSheWillSmile #IMostlyCallHerAPoopMachineAndSayPoopInAHighPitchedWay #SheAlsoPutsHerHandOnMyChestMoreWhenIFeedHer #AllMyRecentPhonePhotosHaveJustBeenWhenIAmFeedingHerAndWhereShePutsHerHands #IThinkYesterdayWasTheFirstTimeThatIDidNotHandExpressOrPump #IFedHerOnAParkBenchYesterdayWhenWeMetNCTFriends #AndTheDayBeforeIBreastfedHerAtATableOutsideOfARestaurant #IReadAboutAnActivityToDoPaintingWithHer #YouPutAPieceOfPaperWithBigDollopsOfPaintOnItInsideASeeThroughPlasticWalletAndTapeItToTheFloor #ThenDragHerHandsAcrossItOrSeeIfSheInteractsWithItDuringTummyTime #PerhapsSheIsTooYoungButWeMightTryItToday #YesterdayIDidDanceVideosWithoutBAndAsMuchAsILoveHavingHerWithMeWhenIDoThemIThinkIDanceBetterAlone #WhenSheIsOnMeMyMovementsAreLimitedAndIDoTheSameMobesButWithoutHerItIsMoreOfAWorkout #SheJustWokeHerselfUpByCryingInHerSleepAndNowIAmCryingBecauseHerFrownBrokeMyHeart

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Hair Bird (22nd August 2020)

  #IUsedToTakePicturesOfMyFallenOutHairInTheShowerAllTheTime #IJustCheckedAndTheFirstOneWasIn2017AndTheLastOneThatICanObviouslySeeWasEarly2019 #WhenIWasPregnantIDidNotReallyLoseAny #IHadBeenToldThatWouldHappenButItStillSeemedOddWhenItTurnedOutToBeTrue #IJustPutItOnTheWallOrSideOfTheBathLikeHere #TodayISeemToHaveRandomlyMadeABird #ThoughTiagoFirstSaidItLookedLikeAHorseWhenIShowedHim #IDoNotWashMyHairMuchAnymore #ICanNotRememberWhenILastDidBeforeTodayButItWasProbably10DaysAgoIsh #IWasJustGoingToReTieMyHairAndIRealisedThatIHadSoManyKnotsUnderneath #IHadALittleDreadlockForming #IDoNotBrushMyHairMuchAsItMakesItGreasier #AndIfITieMyHairUpThenItDoesNotMatterIfItIsBrushedOrNot #TheseHashtagsAreSoBoring #WeGaveBABathToday #WeUsuallyDoTwiceAWeek #AndWashHerDailyWithAFlannel #WeFindItEasierIfOneOfUsGetsInTheBathWithHer #EspeciallyIfTheTubIsQuiteDeep #InTheEarlyDaysItWasTiagoWhoGotInAsHeFeltMoreConfident #NowItIsUsuallyMe #IfIAmLuckyIGetToStayInTheBathALittleLongerAfterwards #ThoughMaybeIAmJustBathingInBabyPiss #TheLastTwoTimesBeforeTodayTheBathGotCutShortDueToNumberTwos #ButTodayAHadALittleBitOfTimeAndWashedMyHairOverTheBathAfterwards #AsIWasGettingDressedTiagoCameInToSayBNeededFeeding #BSeemsToLoveTheBath #SheSitsInABathSupport #SheIsStartingToKickHerLegsAndMovesTheSupportByPuttingHerFeetOnTheFloorAndPushing #ICanNotWaitToGoSwimmingWithHerOneDay

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Hip Hip Hooray (25th August 2020)

  #WentToTheHospitalTodayForBToHaveHerHipsChecked #SheHadToHaveAnUltrasound #WeWereWaitingForAgesAndBWasGettingRestless #IDidNotWantToFeedHerInCaseWeWereAboutToBeCalledInAndIWouldHaveToScrambleToGetReady #IWasJustHoldingHerButICouldNotReallySeeHerWithMyMaskOn #ButEventuallyIThoughtScrewItAsWeHadBeenWaitingFor30Minutes #SoIFedHerButItWasHardToSeeWhatIWasDoingWithMyMaskOnAndSheKeptPullingItDown #After5MinutesIThoughtTheyWouldCallUsThroughSoonAndItSeemedLikeSheHadDrankEnoughToTideHerOver #SheCanDrinkALotIn5MinutesNow #TheyCalledUsThroughAFewMinutesLaterAndSaidSorryforTheDelayAsTheyOnlyHadOneSonographerWorking #SheWasMovingBetweenTwoRoomsWhileHerAssistantCleanedTheVacantOneToSpeedThingsUp #SheSaidTheyUsuallyHaveAtLeastThreeWorking #BWasSuperChillEvenWithTheUltrasoundGel #TheSonographerSaidAllSeemedFineButWeGotSentToAnotherDepartment #ADoctorThereConfirmedAllWasGood #SheSaidTheyWouldUsuallyDoAnExamThereTooButBecauseOfCovidTheyAreNotAtTheMoment #AndApparentlyAtTheStartOfLockdownYouWouldGoToTheSonographerAndGetSentHomeAfter #ThenSomeoneWouldCallTheNextDay #ButSheSaidItLeftParentsFeelingAnxiousWhichIsFairEnough #IHaveNotBotheredStressingAboutItAsIThoughtWhatWasThePoint #SheHasSeemedFineAndAll #ButSittingWithHerForAnUltrasoundMadeItFeelMoreSerious #SoIfIHadHadToWaitForADayItMightHaveBeenStressfulIfTheSonographerHadNotSaidHerHipsSeemFine #ButAllIsGoodAndNowBOnlyHasToWearOneNappyAgain #IStoleTheTitleFromATextMyDadSentWhenHeHeardTheGoodNews #YesterdayWeWentToOurFirstRealLifeBabyClass #ItWasSoNiceToTalkToAndSeeOtherMumsAndBabiesAndGetOutTheFlat #ItWasWeirdRecognisingPeopleFromZoom #BHadNotHadADirtyNappyForTwoDaysSoMyMumSaidToEatSomeLettuce #IAmNotSureIfSheWentBeforeOrAfterIFedHerAfterEatingLettuceButSheHadADirtyNappyAnyways

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Answering The Door Looking A Mess (27th August 2020)

  #IKnewSomePeopleWereCheckingAllTheFireDoorsInTheBuildingTodayButIDidNotKnowWhatTimeTheyWouldCheckOurDoor #IDidThinkAboutPuttingADressOnButThoughtTheyWouldNotComeUntilALotLater #IWasUpAndHadFedBAndChangedHerAndWashedHerWithAFlannel #IHadMadeUpANewSongForHerAboutWhenIDancedInAMusicVideoWhilstIWas6MonthsPregnantWithHer #HeyThereHeyThereMissBB #SawYouOnTheTV #InYourMummysBelly #SheWasDancing #ToASongCalledDanca #NoEffectsOorEnhancer #SheMovedJustLikeJelly #ItIsFunMakingUpSongsForHerAndIHadSungItAbout20TimesAsSheSeemedToBeSingingAlong #AndThenTheDoorWent #IScrambledToFindMyUsualDressButICouldNot #ThenIFranticallyTriedToGrabSomethingFromTheWardrobe #IChuckedOnANursingDressThatIHaveNotWornYetButItWillBeGoodForTheAutumnWhenItIsLessHot #GotToTheDoorAndRealisedHowShortItWasButJustOpenedTheDoor #ThereWereAboutFourGuysThereNotStoodVeryFarApart #IJustOpenedItAndBackedAwayBecauseOfSocialDistancingAndAll #HeLookedALittleShockedAndSaidItWouldTakeAMinute #IJustSaidOkayOkayAndRanBackToTheBedroomToScrambleToPutSomeLeggingsOn #ByTheTimeIHadPutThemOnHeHadAlreadyFinishedAndJustShutTheDoor #ILookedInTheMirrorAndRealisedHowMessyMyHairWas #HeProbablyThoughtHeHadWokenMeUpOrSomething #AndBWasBeingQuietSoHeWouldNotHaveKnownIHadABaby #LolIDoNotReallyCare #TheBigRevelationAroundHereIsThatIFoundOutViaAnInstagramStoryTheMeaningOfPinkEyebrows #SometimesBsEyebrowsAreQuiteRedOrPinkAndIThoughtItWasASkinThing #ButItTurnsOutThatItIsASignThatSheIsSleepySoIKnowThatItIsTimeForHerToTakeANapNow #SometimesIAmLikeThereIsNoWaySheIsTiredButSheGoesToSleepPrettyFast

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This Is Supposed To Be A Photo Of B’s Ear Imprint (31st August 2020)

  #BHadAMorningNapOnMe #SheHadOneOnTiagoBeforeIWokeUpAndThenHePutHerBackInHerCot #WhenSheCriedAndWokeMeUpIGotHerUpAndFedHerAndThenSheFellAsleepOnMeAndIWasTooTiredToGetUpSoILetHerSleep #ICanNotGetUpInTheMorning #WellIHaveToButIFeelTerribleForAWhile #ButThenIGenerallyDoNotSleepAgainUntilNightTime #WhileSheSleptOnMeIReadSomeOfMyLibraryBookThatIGenerallyOnlyReadDuringTheNight #AsIFeelQuiteAwakeButThenWakeUpFeelingTerrible #YouOnlyHave2WeeksToReadAnEbookAndTwoPeopleAreWaitingForItSoINeedToHurryUp #OtherwiseIHaveToWaitForThemToBorrowItBeforeICanFinishIt #TiagoBroughtMeBreakfastAndIAteWhatICouldOverHerHead #WhenIMovedHerOffMeToEatTheMessierPartINoticedLinesOnMyStomachFromHerBabyGrowZip #ButAlsoAStrangeMarkOnMyBoob #LookingDownAtItIRealisedItWasAnImprintOfHerEar #TJustCameIntoTheRoomKindOfHalfSkippingHalfLikeHeWasRidingAHorse #HeSaidHeHadNeverMovedLikeItBeforeAndDidTheSameToExitTheRoom #IThoughtIShouldMentionItAsItMadeMeLaugh #AnywaysITriedToTakeAPictureOfTheEarImprint #ButMyPhoneIsNotVeryGood #AndALotWasOnShowIfIWantedToHaveItSoThatItWasInFocus #SoIQuicklyPassedBToTiago #AndSetUpMyPhotoStuffToSeeIfICouldTakeAnAlrightPhotoWithACloseupFilter #GoodJobItIsABankHolidaySoHeWasAvailable #IWasScramblingAsIKnewItWasAlreadyFading #YouCanKindOfSeeItButIGuessItIsNotVeryObvious #MyFriendBellaHasShownMePhotosOfHerSonsEarImprintedOnHerArmBefore #ForSomeReasonIDidNotExpectToSeeMeWithOneSoSoon #IAmSureItWillNotBeTheLastTimeEither #MaybeNextTimeICanGetABetterPhoto #ButItMightJustLookTheSame

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An Impression Of B Sucking Her Hands (31st August 2020)

  #IHadBeenMeaningToTakeAPictureOfThisForAFewDays #BHasStartedToSuckHerHandsNow #AndBecauseIDoNotWantHerFaceInThisProjectIThoughtIWouldPhotographMyselfDoingItInstead #ItLooksABitLikeSheIsLickingAnIceCream #IHopeItDoesNotLookTooDodgy #WellIfItDoesThenThatIsYourDodgyMindNotMine #ItWasOnMyShootListButIWasTryingToNotDoOneForACoupleOfDays #IAmUpToDateWithMyBlogPostsInTermsOfHavingSomethingWrittenForEachOne #ThenOnTheDayThatIPostIJustCheckOverThemAndAddInAnythingElse #AndIStartedACodingCourseLastWeekSoIFeelLikeIHaveALotGoingOn #SoItWasNiceToNotHaveToWriteAnyBlogPostsForACoupleOfDays #ThenIHadAnImprintOfBsEarOnMyChest #SoIWantedToPhotographThatWithMyQuoteProperKitUnquoteAsMostOfMyPicturesLatelyHaveBeenWithMyCrummyPhoneCamera #ThoughIDidTryToTakeOneWithMyPhone #AndAsEverythingWasSetUpAndBWasWithTiagoIThoughtIWouldTryOutThisIdea #ItIsWhatItIs #MeDoingAnImpressionOfBSuckingHerHand #TiagoGotACoupleOfShelvingUnitsThatIHaveWantedSinceIStartedToNestAtTheBeginningOfLockdown #SoHopefullyNowWeCanSoonHaveTheFlatMoreTidy #ButThenTheNextThingWeNeedToWorryAboutIsBabyproofingEverything #TheFunNeverEnds #IFeelABitLonely #IFeelLikeNonMumFriendsCanNotRelateToMeNowAndSomeAreKeepingTheirDistance #AndThatIDoNotFitInWithNewMumFriendsAsIStartedToDoACourseAndTheyFeelLikeTheyDoNotHaveTimeToDoAnything #INeedToBeProductiveAndRetainSomeOfMyOldIdentityAsOtherwiseItIsNotGoodForMyMentalHealth #ILoveBToBitsAlreadyButSheCanNotProvideMeWithEverythingINeed #AndTheGoodThingAboutMyProjectIsItIsToDoWithOurFamily #ThoughWritingThingsLikeThisIsHardButIThinkSheWillUnderstandOneDay #IAmStillWorkingOnABalanceButIGuessItIsAWorkInProgressFromWeekToWeek #INeedToDoSomeStretchingBeforeSheWakesUpFromHerNapAsIHaveNotInAFewDaysAndIDoNotFeelThatGreatBecauseOfIt

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I Went To The Supermarket For The First Time Since Before Lockdown And Got Soaked (2nd September 2020)

  #ItWasRainingABitEarlierButIThoughtItWasJustDrizzlingAfterAWhileSoIDecidedToGoForAWalk #IHaveBeenTryingToGoForAWalkBeforeTFinishesWorkSoICanDoABitOfMyCourseInTheEvening #AndTIsNotBotheredAboutNotGoingOut #OneMinuteIAmTellingMyselfOffForSigningUpForToLearnCodingAsIFeelIHaveEnoughOnMyPlateButTheNextMinuteIAmLovingChallengingMyselfAndItFeelsGreatWhenIGetThingsRight #JustBeforeILeftIDecidedIShouldGoToTheSupermarket #IHadNotBeenInOneSinceBeforeLockdown #SometimesIGetBoredAsMyWalksAreABitAimlessSoItWasNiceToHaveAMission #ILeftHomeAndItWasRainingALittleBitButItWasNotTooBad #IWasGoingToGoForAWalkFirstThenGoShoppingBeforeICameHome #FiveMinutesLaterItWasPouringDownSoIJustHeadedForTheShop #IHadToStopBeforeIGotThereToPutMyMaskOnAsThereWasNowhereToShelterByTheShopToDoIt #LuckilyItWasQuietInsideBecauseOfTheRain #IWasAnxiousAboutPushingBAroundAsTheAislesAreQuiteSmall #ItWasWeirdSeeingThePricesOfThingsAndSeeingProductsThatIHaveNotSeenInMonths #TiagoHasBeenDoingOurShoppingForSoLongNow #IAwkwardlyTookACoupleOfPhotosOfMyselfInTheShopToMarkThisMomentousOccasion #AMemberOfStaffWalkedByAsIWasDoingItSoITriedToNotLookAsWeirdAsIDid #IPrettyMuchBlockedTheWholeSelfServiceSectionWithThePushchair #AndITriedToScanAndPackAsQuickAsPossible #MyShoppingBagsWereSoakingWet #ItWasABitOfAStressfulExperience #IWentOutsideAndNoticedBHadLostHerDummy #IPulledOverToSomeShelterButICouldNotFindItAndMyArmWasSoWetThatIDidNotWantToDigAroundForIt #ITriedToWalkFastAndACarSplashedMeButIWasSoSoakedThatItDidNotMakeADifference #ItWasGoodToTestBsPushchairsWaterproofCoverToTheLimit #IWouldHaveDoneAFullLengthPhotoOfHowSoakedIWasButItWasTooCold #TheOnlyThingThatDidNotGetWetAtAllWereMyBreastPads #LuckilyBKeptSleepingSoICouldHaveAHotShower #TSawHowWetIWasAndSaidSomethingAboutHowNiceItMustFeelToFeelTheRainOnMeOrSomething #ILikeWalkingInTheRainButThisWasTooMuchSoNextTimeIWillBeMoreCareful

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Failing To Imitate The Cute Thing That B Does With Her Mouth (6th September 2020)

  #IWasPlanningOnDoingThisShootTomorrow #ButIWasGettingReadyForBedAndISuddenlyFeltAwake #BIsAsleepOnTiagoSoIWasGoingToDoSomeStretchingButIDecidedToDoAShootInstead #MaybeIWillTryToStretchABitAfter #BDoesThisCuteThingWithHerMouthWhenSheCoos #MyNanDescribesItAsPursingHerLips #WhichIGuessItIsButICanNotSeemToImitateItWell #ItEitherLooksLikeIAmTryingToBeSexyOrLikeIAmTryingToImitateAMonkey #Awkward #TodaySheWasDoingItWhilstLookingAtHerCalamariToy #TMadeACuteVideoOfIt #ThisWeekendBMetMySisterHerPartnerAndTheirSonForTheFirstTime #AndItWasOurFirstTimeMeetingOurNephewSoThatWasNice #IAmStillWorkingOnGettingBToHaveNapsEvery60To90MinutesDuringTheDay #ItGoesFairlyWellUntilMidAfternoonAndThenOftenSheIsAwakeFor5Hours #SoOurNewThingIsTakingHerOutForAWalkInHerPramIfWeStruggle #ButOnceSheFallsAsleepIAmTooScaredToComeHomeTooEarlyInCaseSheWakesUpAsSoonAsIGetIn #YesterdayIEndedUpGoingForAWalkAsItWasGettingDark #ItWasFunnySeeingEveryoneOutInTheirFancyClothesReadyForANightOut #AndIWasJustLookingAStatePushingAPushchairAbout #ItReallyDoesNotSeemLikeThereIsAPandemicHalfTheTime #IHaveBeenToACoupleOfShopsLately #ToTheSupermarketAndToABakery #PushingAPushchairAroundYouRealiseHowBadAccessIsAtSomePlaces #OrHowFrustratingSomePathsAreToNavigate #IDidNotGoIntoOneBakeryAsIDidNotThinkIWouldBeAbleToPushBsPushchairRoundTheOneWaySystemWithTheBarriers #AtTheOneIWentIntoInTheEndIHadToTurnThePushchairOnItsSideABit #INearlyDidNotBotherGoingInAsIDidNotWantToEmbarrassMyself #AndThenOnTheWayOutTwoGuysMovedTheBarrierForUsABitToGetOutWithNoProblem #PeopleInWheelchairsOrWithMobilityScootersMustGetSoAnnoyed

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