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Imitating B Watching The Washing Machine (1st May 2021)

  #IfWeCanNotFindBThereIsAGoodChanceThatSheIsByTheWashingMachine #PressingAllTheButtonsToSeeIfSheCanGetThemToMakeASound #IfICallHerAndSheDoesNotComeThenIUsuallyOpenTheDishwasherAndSheQuicklyAppears #ThisMorningSheKnockedOverACupOfColdCoffeeAndTiagosLaptopScreenWillNotWork #NotLongBeforeIHadMovedNansCupsAroundToDecreaseTheRiskOfKnockingThemOver #ThenTiagoPutHisCupOnTheTableWithHisLaptopNearbyAndThereYouGo #BsWordRangeHasIncreasedToHerJustSayingDadAllTheTimeNow #SheWokeUpWithASnottyColdYesterdaySoItHasBeenFunChasingHerAroundAfterHerAllTheTimeWithATissue #IHaveNotTakenHerForAWalkInTwoDaysButTheWeatherHasBeenQuiteRubbish #WeWentToTheSupermarketLastNightWhichSeemsToBeOurNewWeeklyFamilyTime #SheIsEatingMoreOfOurMealsNowAndFeedingHerselfMoreWhichIsNice #ItJustMakesThingsSoMuchEasier #IAmLookingForwardToMoreThingsReopeningLikeSoftPlayPlaces #ItWillBeNiceToTakeHerOutToFunActivitiesAndItIsBetterNowThatIAmConfidentAboutHerEatingOutsideTheHouse #TheOtherDayWeWereAllInTheBathroomAndBStoodUpFromTheFloorWithoutHoldingOntoAnything #ItMightHaveBeenBecauseSheWasSoBoredInThereButSheDidItAFewTimes #MyNanSaidSheDidItYesterdayInTheLivingRoomButItIsNotARegularThingYet #InOtherNewsIHaveBookedADrivingTheoryTest #IHaveNotTriedToDriveSince2010WhenIWasTryingToPassMyTestBeforeMovingToLondon #IRanOutOfTimeAndDueToNotNeedingToDriveInLondonAndConfidenceIssuesIDidNotKeepItUp #IHaveThoughtAboutItOverTheYearsIncludingWhenWeLivedInLiverpool #InLiverpoolIWentSoFarAsToBuyATheoryAppButNeverEvenOpenedIt #ThenAfterBWasBornISaidIWantedToLearnToDriveButThenThePandemicHasDraggedOn #LessonsHaveStartedUpAgainNowButNoOneHasAvailabilityAtTheMoment #AndAllOfTheTestCentresAreFullyBookedUntilOctoberApparently #ARidiculousNumberOfPeopleAreWaitingToTakeTheirTests #SoIMightAsWellGetTheTheoryPartDoneAndThenTryToGetLessonsWhenICan #IFeelLikeIAmRubbishWithSpatialAwarenessAndManoeuvresButIMightHaveMagicallyGainedSomeSkillsIn10PlusYearsOfNotDriving #IThinkConfidenceIsABigPartOfItAllAndIDidNotHaveMuchThatLongAgo #TiagoSaysHeFindsItWeirdThatISayIDoNotHaveTheConfidenceToDriveButCanTalkInFrontOf100PlusPeople

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Hire Us For Your Denim Advert (6th May 2021)

  #ThisWeekIsMaternalMentalHealthAwarenessWeek #ItFeelsSomewhatFittingAsIWasSupposedToDoAllThisYesterdayButIFeltTooCrapTo #IHadANapWhenBHadHerFirstNapAndIFeltMuchBetterButTheRestOfTheDayWasStillASlog #ThisProjectIsSupposedToBeAllAboutHonestyAndStuffButIFeelLikeIDoLeaveQuiteABitOut #IThinkFromReadingMyProjectThoughItIsSomewhatClearThatIHaveBeenStruggling #ItGoesUpAndDownAndSometimesIFeelFineAndThenIJustReallyRubbishAgain #IHaveBeenFindingItHardToGetOutOfBedEvenIfISleepFairlyWell #IThinkIHaveDippedAgainBecauseTheWeatherHasBeenSoCrummyAgainLately #ItJustRainsEveryDayAndIFeelStuckInsideButMoreThingsReopenIn11DaysSoIHopeThatWillMakeABigDifference #IFeelLikeICanNotCompletelyRelaxInTheLivingRoomAtMyNansHouseWhichIsMoreToDoWithMeThanHer #AgainWithTheWeatherBeingRubbishItMeansOurOptionsAreLimitedWithWhereWeCanGo #AsBHasBlackoutBlindsTapedToHerWindowIDoNotLikeToTakeHerInThereMuchAsItIsSoDark #SoThisMorningIBroughtHerToOurBedroomWhichIHadToChildproofABitMoreForHer #IWasWorriedThatSheWasColdAndIDidNotWantToGoDownstairsToGetHerUsualIndoorJacket #SoIPutHerInHerDenimJacketThatSheHadNotWornBeforeAndIHadBroughtUpstairsAnHourBefore #ThenIRememberedThatTiagoHasADenimJacketSoIThoughtIWouldWearItAndWeCouldDoAShootToPassTheTimeUntilBreakfast #IAmNotSureWhichPictureIWillChooseYetButBWasQuiteFedUpAndIWasFeelingDownSoIfItLooksAllHappyFamilyThenThatMightNotBeTheReality #HireUsForYourDenimAdvert #MyMumIsHereNowSoIThinkWeWillGoHomeWithHerJustToGetAChangeOfScenery #BWasIllAndShePassedItOntoMeAndNowAllMyTeethHurtWhichIHopeIsJustRelatedToFeelingRundown #ItIsPainfulAndParacetamolDoesNotSeemToTouchItWhichDoesNotMakeMeFeelMuchBetter #BeingIllWhenYouDoNotHaveAKidIsTotallyDifferentToBeingIllWithAKid #LuckilyItWasABankHolidayWeekendSoTiagoWasAroundToHelpForAnExtraDayButICouldHaveJustDoneWithLyingInBedForAFewDaysButSillyMeFeelsGuiltyAboutSuchThingsNow #YesterdayWeDidAVideoCallInTheKitchenAndIPutBsWalkerThereToSeeIfSheWouldUseIt #BeforeIHadEvenStartedTheCallSheStoodUpAndStartedToPushItWhichWasAHugeSurprise #ITriedToGetHerToShowTiagoLaterButIThinkSheWasABitTiredAndDidNotDoItSoWell #SomeGoodNewsIsHeHadAnInterviewForHisBritishPassportAndThatWasFineSoFingersCrossedThatWillBeSortedSoon #WeAreDefinitelyInNeedOfSomeTimeAwaySomewhereAndWeHopeWeCanSeeHisFamilyThisSummer #IDoWonderHowIWouldHaveBeenIfIHadHadABabyInNonCovidTimesButIGuessIWouldStillBeStrugglingInSomeWay #IAmJustPissedOffThatItHasBeenATotalPostcodeLotteryWithWhatHasBeenOpenInDifferentAreasOverTheLastFewMonthsAndWithWhatSupportYouGet

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Imitating B Sucking Her Thumb (9th May 2021)

  #WellMaybeSheIsSuckingHerThumbOrMaybeSheIsJustTeething #TheTeethingSeemsLikeItWillNeverEndAndSheStillOnlyHasOneTooth #IHaveJustNoticedHerSuckingHerThumbAndFlappingHerHandAroundInTheLastWeek #SheHasBeenWakingUpBefore6LatelySoWeNeedToSeeWhatWeCanDoToPushHerWakeupTimeBack #IJustSeemSuperTiredAtTheMomentAndMyTeethAreStillHurtingALot #IbruprofenSeemsToTakeTheEdgeOffOfItButIThinkOneOfMyTeethNeedsToComeOut #TiagoSaidIfIGetItOutThenEventuallyTheNextOneWillNeedToComeOutAndSoOnAndHowWillIEatWithNoTeeth #IPointedOutThatBHasBeenDoingPrettyWellWithHerGumsForALongTime #ItRainedAllDayYesterdayButIDidNotCareSoMuchAsItIsTheWeekend #WeStillWentOutForAWalkAnywaysAndItWasQuiteNice #PortugalIsCurrentlyOnTheGreenTravelListSoWeAreLookingAtBookingATrip #ICanNotBelieveThatBIsNearlyAYearOldAndSheHasNotMetHerPortugueseGrandparentsYet #WeJustHaveToHopeThatThingsDoNotGetWorseAndThatWeWillNotHaveToQuarantineInAHotel #TheTripIsFaffyEnoughAsItIsLetAloneWithTravellingWithABabyWithCovidRestrictions #ItIsAMinimumOfTwoFlightsToGetToHisHomeIslandSoItIsLookingForTripsThatDoNotHaveMegaLayovers #MostOfTheFlightsAreEitherSuperEarlyInTheMorningOrTheyArriveBackLateAtNight #WhichWouldNotBeSoBadIfTheyWereFromBirminghamButWeWillHaveToTravelToManchesterOrLondon #AndItProbablyWillBeLondonAsTheyHaveFlightsThatLeaveAndArriveAtOkayishTimes #IAmAlreadyFeelingStressedAboutHavingToGetToAndFromTheAirports #PlusSortingOutTestingAndDealingWithDifferentAirlinesAndLuggage #IShouldNotComplainAsIKnowWeAreLuckyToBeAbleToGoAway #IfItWasNotForSeeingHisFamilyAndGoingToAWeddingAndHavingToSortOutThingsThereWeWouldJustLeaveItThough #OrIGuessWeWouldHaveMaybeTriedALocationThatWasALotEasierToGetTo #WeAlsoNeedToSortOutCotsAndCarSeatsAndHighchairsAndThingsSoThatIsMoreFunToLookAt #IJustWantToSwimInTheSeaAndHaveAChangeOfScenery #IDidNotBotherGoingToMyParentsHouseTheOtherDayAsICouldNotBeBotheredToPackUpAllOfBsThings #ByTheTimeIHadFinishingVentingInMyPostAndBlogIFeltMuchBetter #MyMumSaysSheIsSurprisedThatWeAllHaveNotArguedALotMoreThanWeHave #ItIsNiceSeeingMyNanEveryDayAndIFeelGuiltyThatWeAreGoingAwayButItWillBeGoodForUsAll #IJustHopeThatWeWillNotHaveToCancelOurTripAfterAllOfThisPlanningButLetsSee

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B Has Only One Tooth And Today I Had One Pulled Out (12th May 2021)

  #WellThisWasNotWhatIWasPlanningToTalkOrShootAboutToday #MyToothPainWentAwayForADayOrTwoAndThenItStartedUpAgainSoIThoughtIShouldCallTheDentistToday #IWasSurprisedThatTheyWouldSeeMeSoSoon #IWasTryingToWaitForMyDentalHygienistAppointmentButThenIRealisedThatTheyMightNotBeAbleToAdviseOnMyTooth #TheySaidToCancelThatAppointmentButTheyDoNotHaveOtherSlotsUntilOctober #MyTwoBackUpperRightTeethWereApparentlySuperCloseTogetherAndTheBackOneHadAFillingThatWasNearlyTouchingTheNerve #HeTalkedAboutWideningTheGapButHeSeemedToBeSayingToJustGetRidOfTheTooth #SoIDidAndIWorryThatIMaybeDidItPrematurelyButItIsTooLateNow #TheFeelingOfHavingAToothYankedOutIsSoWeird #LuckilyItOnlyTookAFewMinutesAndWasQuiteSimpleComparedToTheThirtyMinutesOrSoItTookToPullOutMyLastWisdomTooth #TypicallyTheOnlySlotTheyHadCoincidedWithBsBabyClassSoIInitiallySaidIWouldCallAgainTomorrow #ButThenISpokeToTiagoAndDecidedItWasBestToJustGoToday #IWasLookingForwardToTakingBToAClassEspeciallyAsSheSeemedToEnjoyHerOtherClassThisWeek #AllOfTheOtherBabiesWereJustChillingOnTheirMatsAndBWasJustConstantlyCrawlingAway #IWouldGoToFetchHerAndASecondLaterSheWouldBeOffAgain #TheTeacherSaidNotToWorryAndAgainWhenEveryoneWasQuietAndBWasScreaming #SheHasANewHabitOfScreamingButIThinkItIsWhenSheIsExcited #EarlierSheWasJustStoodUpScreamingAtTheBuckleOfHerHighchair #TheTeacherSaidThatWeShouldReadAtLeastFiveBooksADayToOurKids #IUsedToDoThatAndThenIGotLazySoTodayIThinkIReadAboutEightBooksToHer #SheUsuallyGetsBoredAfterAFewPagesButIKeepReadingAnyways #WhenIPutHerToBedIWillSometimesLieDownOnHerMatNextToHerAndReadWhichSheSeemsToLike #UntilSheGetsBoredAndCrawlsAwayOfCourse #ThereWasAFunnyKidAtThePlaygroundTodayWhoKeptTellingMeThatHeWasABoyAndThatHeIsStrongBecauseHeEatsMightyFood #IAskedHimWhatMightyFoodIsAndHeSaidPeasAndBroccoli #ISaidThatBLikesThemButHeThenSaidThatHeDoesNotReallyLikeThem #WeHaveBookedMostOfOurTripToSeeTiagosParentsAndYesItWillBeAFaffAndYesIHopeItGoesAhead #ThereWasANewsReportEarlierAboutThePriceOfTestingAndThatSomePeopleHaveHadProblemsWithThemNotTurningUp #FingersCrossedItWorksOutAsIAmFeelingABitBetterNowThatWeMightHaveSomethingToLookForwardTo #ThereIsPlentyOfTimeForTravelToPortugalToBeDisallowedAndAllowedAgainSoWeWillHaveToSee

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Portrait Of A Mother Of An Eleven Month Old (15th May 2021)

  #ICanNotBelieveThatBIsNearlyAYearOld #WhatAWeirdYearItHasBeen #ITookThisPhotoAsSoonAsIGotOutOfBed #IProbablyShouldHaveTakenItHalfAnHourEarlierButIWasWaitingForTiagoToGetBUpAsSheWasMakingNoise #AndTiagoWasWaitingForMeToGetHerUpAsHeHadWokenUpAt4 #IShouldHaveJustGotUpAndDoneTheShootThenGotHerUpButSheIsWithTiagoNowWhileIDoSomeWork #YesterdayTiagoTookHerToTheSupermarketByHimselfForTheFirstTime #IUsuallyJoinToGetOltOfTheHouseWithHerButItMadeSenseForThemToGoAlone #ItWasAlsoTheFirstTimeThatTheyHadBeenAloneInTheCarWhichIsWeirdAsSheIs11MonthsOld #TiagoSaidHeEnjoyedPushingHerAroundAndTalkingToHer #IThinkABigMistakeWeMadeWasNotGettingAPushchairWhereSheCanFaceUsButOhWell #IAmRecoveringAlrightAfterHavingAToothOut #IHaveBeenSuperTiredButMaybeItIsDownToNotExercisingSoMuch #IHaveNotReallyExercisedInAFewWeeksAndMyOutdoorClassHasOnlyHappenedOnceDueToBadWeather #PortugalHasBeenOnTheNewsALotWhenTalkingAboutSummerHolidays #WhatHappensHappensAndWeWillJustHaveToSee #IsItWeirdThatBIsNearlyAYearOldAndIStillFindItWeirdThatIHaveAKidAtTimes #YesterdayIFellDownAnInternetHoleAndWasReadingAThreadAboutPeopleRegrettingTheyHadKids #IDoNotRegretThatWeHadBAndThoughIFindItWeirdThatIAmAMotherICanNotImagineMyLifeWithoutHerNow #ItWasMainlyPeopleSayingHowTiredTheyAreAndIGetIt #WeWouldLikeToHaveAnotherChildAtSomePointButIDoWorryAboutHavingLessTimeForMyOwnStuff #TheFurtherThatBGetsAwayFromTheSuperDependentBabyPhaseTheLessIWantToGoBackThere #NowSheIsFeedingHerselfQuiteWellWhenWeGiveHerFoodWhereItIsDoable #AndSheSitsAndAmusesHerselfMoreWhichIsNiceThoughIFeelBadIfSheDoesItForTooLong #ButItGoodToBeAbleToMakeHerFoodWhileSheJustPlaysAndCrawlsAbout #IWorryThatIAmABadEnoughMotherOfOneLetAloneAddingAnotherChildIntoTheMix #IGuessWeWillJustSeeWhatHappensAndIfItHappensThenThingsWillNeedToChange #InACoupleOfDaysMoreThingsWillReopenSoItWillBeGoodToExploreSomeDifferentPlaces #IThinkTheWeatherIsMeantToBeQuiteRubbishForTheRestOfTheMonth #IDefinitelyNeedToGetBetterAtEntertainingBIndoorsAtHome

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Imitating B Using A Balloon As A Pillow (19th May 2021)

  #IHaveOnlySeenHerDoThisOnceButSheIsStartingToRestHerHeadOnThings #TheFloorACushionMyLapThisBalloon #HerPersonalitySeemsToBeDevelopingMoreEveryday #SheIsSuddenlyTakingMoreOfAnInterestInDogsWhichMakesOurWalksMoreInteresting #TheOtherDayWeMetUpWithAFriendForAPicnicAndADogKeptStealingTheirFood #YesterdayIReadAnArticleAboutPeoplesHighsAndLowsOfHavingALockdownBaby #ItReallyMadeMeFeelQuiteDownButIThinkNotHavingSleptMuchDidNotHelpEither #IHaveStartedToStayUpTooLateAtNightButOftenICanNotSleep #BGoesToBedAndIAmTiredButThenISuddenlyWakeUpAndWantMoreOfMyOwnTime #IHaveJustBeenWastingMyTimeWatchingYoutubeVideosAndThings #IAmFindingItHardToWriteTheseHashtagsTodayAndIThinkItIsBecauseIAmTired #BWokeUpAtFiveFortyThisMorningButIPutTheHeatingOnInHerRoomAndWeThenHadToWakeHerUpAtSeven #MyNansHouseIsUsuallyQuiteHotSoIThinkBIsQuiteUsedToTheHeatNow #IWonderHowSheWillDealWithBeingOnHolidayInAMuchCoolerHouse #IWouldRatherJustBeHavingANapRightNowButIFeelBadIfIDoNotDoThisProject #IDoDebateHavingSomeTimeOffMyWorkButTheFeelingPassesAndIGetOnWithItAllAgain #ITookBToSoftPlayTheOtherDayAndItWasNotAsGreatAsIHopedItWouldBe #TheYoungKidsSectionWasABitSadAndPeopleGraduallyStoppedWearingTheirMasksWhichPissedMeOff #IThinkABigPartOfItIsDownToWhoIsThereAtTheSameTimeAsYou #EveryoneElseSeemedToBeThereWithSomeoneElseAndINeedToStopBeingAwkwardAboutTalkingToPeople #ITookBOnTheSlideACoupleOfTimesThoughIThinkIFoundItMoreFunThanHer #IWillProbablyEndUpTakingHerThereAgainSoonJustAsThereIsNotMuchElseAroundHereToDo #IAmHopingToTryOutANewPlaygroupWithHer #DueToThePandemicYouHaveToPrebookEverythingWhichIsNotGreatForSpontaneousPlans #SomeGoodNewsIsThatTiagosPassportHasArrivedSoThatIsOneLessThingToWorryAbout #ICutHisHairForTheThirdTimeTheOtherDayAndNowHisPassportPictureLooksNothingLikeHim #HeShavedTooAndNowHeJustLooksLikeBsOlderBrother #IAmTryingToGetBackIntoExercisingThoughIGenerallyDoSpeedUpMyStretchingVideos #ToBeFairIHaveDoneThemAllSoManyTimesThatIDoNotNeedToHearTheLongExplanations #IAmSoOverFeedingBNowThatITurnHerPorridgeIntoPancakes

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Imitating B When She Gets Shy (23rd May 2021)

#AtLeastIThinkItIsWhenSheIsShyOrIsPerhapsPretendingToBe #OftenSheWillCrawlTowardsSomeoneAndThenSuddenlyHideABit #SometimesSomeoneWillComeRoundToVisitAndSheWillBeReallyUpsetAboutIt #ButAfterAWhileSheGetsOverItAndTheyAreHerNewBestFriend #ButAtClassesSheWillJustCrawlOffAndLeaveMeInFrontOfLotsOfPeople #ThenSheMightGetCloseToSomeoneAndPutHerHeadDownButSometimesNot #WeSawSomeFriendsYesterdayAndThereWereTimesWhenSheWasBeingShy #WeGotThereAndDidNotRealiseThatSheMustBeHeavilyTeethingAsSheWasNotReallyBeingHerself #AtOnePointSheWentToTiagoToBeComfortedAndThenFellAsleepInHisArms #ICanNotRememberTheLastTimeSheJustRandomlyFellAsleepOnEitherOfUs #IWasGettingQuiteWorriedButSheSeemsToBeOkay #ItWasGreatToSeeSomeOldFriendsAndTheirBaby #ToCatchUpAndHaveAChangeOfSceneryAndToHaveTheKindOfTimeWithPeopleThatIThoughtWeWouldHaveHadALotMoreOfByNow #OnTheWayThereWeStoppedAtAPetrolStationAndIThinkSheThoughtWeWereThereAlreadyAndGotQuiteExcited #ItWasOurLongestCarTripSinceWeMovedToBirminghamNearlySevenMonthsAgo #ItIsWeirdThatSheHasNowLivedInBirminghamLongerThanSheLivedInLiverpool #ITriedToGetUsOutEveryWeekDayLastWeek #ForFridayIWasLookingAtAllTheDifferentOptionsButOneSoldOutAsIWasAboutToBook #InTheEndIDecidedWeWouldGoSomewhereElseButItJustRainedAllDay #AndAfterBGotUpFromHerFirstNapICouldNotBeBotheredToGoOutInTheRain #SoWeJustStayedInAllDayButItWasNotSoBadAsWeHadBeenOutALotAllWeek #IDefinitelyNeedToDoThingsOnAThursdayAsThatIsTheDayThatDragsTheMost #ItIsAShameThatTheLibraryIsNotOpenEveryDayAsThatWouldBeAnEasyPlaceToGo #IAmHavingPhasesOfLookingAtBAndGettingEmotional #IAmRealisingHowLuckyIAmToHaveHerEvenThoughIStillFindItWeirdThatIAmAMother #InTheCarYesterdayIWasJustWatchingHerSleepAndFeelingVeryGratefulToHaveHer #ICanNotImagineMyLifeWithoutHerNowAndThingsAreBetterNowThatMoreThingsAreOpen #IDoNotLikeHowThisProjectHasBeenAMassiveWhinefestButItHasBeenMyPlaceToVentAndFeelBetter #IDoFeelLikeNewParentsHaveBeenForgottenABitInThisPandemic #IAmAnnoyedThatItHasAllBeenATotalPostcodeLotteryWithHowMuchSupportYouDoAndDoNotGet

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Failing To Imitate B Playing With Her Socks While B Tried To Make It Look Like She Took The Photo (26th May 2021)

#WeKeepALotOfHerSocksInTheLivingRoomByHerJacketsSoThatWeCanPutThemOnBeforeGoingOut #BHasANewishThingOfGettingThemAndJustPlayingWithThem #SheMainlyWavesThemAroundButSometimesSheTriesToEatThem #SomeGoodNewsIsThatIPassedMyDrivingTheoryTestThisWeek #MyMumWatchedBWhileIWentIntoBirminghamCityCentre #TheTrainWasBusierThanLastTimeAndSeeingOtherKidsBeingPushedAroundInPushchairsMadeMeMissB #INeedToFindTheCourageToTakeHerThereSometimeButIFeelABitWorried #IHaveNotTakenHerThatFarAwayFromHomeByMyselfBeforeButIShouldTryToDoItSoon #InTwoWeeksTiagoWillHaveAWeekOffSoIAmLookingForwardToThat #MaybeWeWillGoToBirminghamThenSoAtLeastItWillNotBeSoScaryAsTakingHerByMyself #IWasSurprisedThatIPassedMyTestAsThereWereAFewThingsIKnewNothingAbout #NowIJustNeedToFindADrivingInstructorAndGetDrivingWhichIAmExcitedForButAlsoNervousAbout #IQuicklyWentToAGalleryAfterwardsWhichWasMyFirstVisitToOneSinceMovingToBirmingham #IHadToGetBackHomeToTakeBToHerBabyClassSoItWasASuperSpeedyVisit #TheNightBeforeMyTestBWasWakingUpEveryTwoHoursOrSoWhichSheNeverDoes #IThinkSheIsTeethingAndSheIsNotVeryWell #TheOtherMorningSheFellAsleepOnMyNanLessThanAnHourAfterSheHadWokenUpWhichSheRarelyDoes #IAmFineAfterHavingAToothRemovedButNowTiagoHasAToothThatIsPlayingUp #HeManagedToGetToTheDentistYesterdayAndTheyGaveHimSomePenicillin #IfWeManageToMakeItToPortugalThisSummerThenTiagosDentistCousinWillSortHimOut #WeManagedToGetToBsClassOnTimeAndAfterwardsIThoughtSheWouldNotNapOnTheWayHome #IHadPutHerHoodUpAndAfter5MinutesICheckedOnHerAndItWasAllTheWayDownToHerMouthAndSheWasAsleep #SheWasSleepingVeryHeavilyWhileIPushedHerAroundThenJustSatOnABench #MyLegsWereLikeJellyAsIWasNotUsedToWalkingSoMuchInOneDay #LastNightIWasLyingDownOnTheFloorAndBCameOver #IThoughtWeWereGoingToHaveASweetMomentButSheStuckHerThumbUpMyNose #ItWasFunnyButItDidHurtAndMyNoseBledABit #NextWeekIsHalfTermWhichMeansHerClassesAndGroupsWillNotBeRunning #TheWeatherIsGettingBetterAtLeastSoHopefullyWeCanJustSitInTheParkMore #IAmYetToTryGoingToSoftPlayAgainButIShouldGiveTheOneWeHaveNotGoneToAChance

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Ninth Family Portrait (31st May 2021)

#WellThisWeekendWeHadOurFirstNightAwayFromMyNansHouseSinceWeMovedIn #ICanNotBelieveThatWeHaveBeenLivingHereForSevenMonthsAlready #IWasSupposedToWriteAListOfThingsToTakeButOfCourseIDidNotAndWeForgotAFewThings #TheMostMajorThingWasBsNoiseMachineThatPlaysWhileSheSleeps #WeUsedMyPhoneForNapsAndThenTiagosForTheNight #OfCourseTheBatteryDiedButIThinkBOnlyWokeUpVeryBrieflySoThatWasGood #WeWentToLiverpoolAsWeAreStillInTouchWithPeopleFromOurNCTGroup #AndTheFirstBirthdayPartiesAreStartingToHappenSoWeWentForAJointParty #ItWasAShameThatNotEveryoneCouldBeThereForItWasNiceToSeeSixOfThemTogether #BWasSuperShyWhenWeArrivedAndHeldBackOnOurPicnicBlanket #AfterAWhileSheWasQuiteContentCrawlingRoundPickingUpEveryonesBearShapedPotatoSnacks #ItRemindedMeOfGoingToSchoolDiscosAndJustSeeingHowManyBagsOfCrispsICouldEat #ThePartyHatsDidNotLastLongButTheyAllSeemedToEnjoyThemselvesAndItWasNiceToCatchUpWithTheOtherParents #TheNextDayWeWentToMeetFriendsInTheCentreToHaveLunch #ItWasBsFirstMealAtARestaurantAndOurFirstSinceMovingToBirmingham #SheJustHadBitsOfOurFoodAndIShouldHaveTakenAPictureOfHerCoveredInTomatoSauce #ItWasSoHotOut #LuckilyTheRestaurantManagedToGiveUsSomeShadeAsIWasWorriedAboutBGettingTooHot #IThoughtItWouldHaveBeenReallyHotAtTheBirthdayPartyButItWasNotSoIDidNotDressAppropriately #LiverpoolLookedLikeItWasBackToNormalAsThereWereSoManyPeople #WeWantedToGetAPictureWithTheBeatlesStatueButItWasTooBusy #IFeelAwkwardHavingAPhotoTakenWithSoManyPeopleWatchingToo #WeWentToOpenEyeGalleryBrieflyToSeeFriends #WeUsedTheBabyChangingFacilitiesAndItWasTheFirstTimeWeHaveChangedHerNappyInAPublicPlaceSinceMovingIThink #WePlannedToGetOnTheRoadWhenItWasTimeForBsSecondNapSoSheCouldSleepInTheCar #OfCourseInTheEndWeLeftReallyLate #BWasOvertiredAndCriedALotInTheCar #SheEndedUpSleepingFor10MinutesAboutTwoHoursLaterThanSheShouldHave #ThoughIWasABitRelievedAsIWasWorriedSheWouldNeedASuperLateBedtimeByThatPoint #HerRoomWasHotWhenWeGotBackSoWeTriedPuttingHerInAShortSleevedVestAndLuckilySheSleptTheWholeNight

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Here We Go Again Again (9 Weeks? / 31st May 2021)

#WellIDidAPregnancyTestAnHourOrSoAgoAndItWasPositive #IWasGoingToBeMoreSurprisedIfIWasNotAsItWasJustToCheckWhatIThought #IHaveBeenFeelingSickishForAFewWeeksAndHaveHadOtherSymptoms #SpotsLotsOfSnotReallyReallyTiredSomeDizzinessFeelingMoreEmotional #IWillLookAtBAndStartCryingAsIAmSoHappyToHaveHer #ABigSignIsThatMyPeriodIsUnusuallyLate #IHaveBeenFourDaysLateBeforeButWeArePastThatNowAndYeahItSeemedTimeToDoATest #IWouldHaveDoneItSoonerButWeHaveBeenAwayAndIHaveHadLotsOfWorkToDo #SoIWantedToWaitUntilIHadTimeToDoAShootAndWriteAboutItWhichIsABitSad #WeDidAFamilyShootThenIDidTheTestAndThenITookThePictures #IAmExcitedButNervous #IWantedToWaitAndSeeIfMyPeriodArrivedBeforeDoingATestAsIDidNotWantToBeDisappointedLikeLastTime #IDidHaveSomeSpottingThreeDaysBeforeItWasDueButThatWasIt #SoMaybeThatWasImplantationBleedingButIDoNotThinkIAmOnlyFiveWeeksPregnant #IWasWorriedThatIWasImaginingMorningSicknessSoThatIsAnotherReasonThatIWantedToDelayTakingATest #INeedToBookMyCovidVaccinationsSoIWantToCheckWithMyDoctorAboutItAllFirst #IHopeThisPregnancyGoesWell #IAmWorriedThatSomethingWillGoWrongButItIsWhatItIsAndWeWillHaveToSee #IfTheBabyHappensThenTheyWillBeBornInTheOppositeSeasonToB #WhichMeansThatMyGrandPlanOfPassingHerStuffAlongMightNotCompletelyWork #HerNiceStuffForTheSummerNowWillNotBeGoodForABabyBornInTheWinterWhoWillBeTooSmallForThemButOhWell #AtLeastIWillNotBeHeavilyPregnantInSummer #IDoNotWantToTellPeopleForNow #IWantToKeepItQuietAndThenMaybeJustTalkAboutItIfAndWhenIGetToTwelveWeeks #WhichMightBeSoonOrItMightNot #TheTwelveWeeksThingIsNotGreatAsItFeelsLikeItJustProtectsOtherPeopleFromTheAwkwardnessOfItAllMoreThanMe #AndIWillTalkAboutItWhetherOrNotItProgressesButIGuessSomePeopleDoNotLikeToShareSoMuch #IWonderHowItWillBeHavingTwoKids #IWorryThatItCouldBeTwinsButIReallyDoubtIt #IfBHadHadATwinThatWouldHaveBeenGreatButIDoNotWantTwinsNowThoughIfTwinsHappenThenWeWillGetOnWithItObviously

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I Just Want To Know How Pregnant I Am (9 Weeks? / 3rd June 2021)

#AmIFiveWeeksOrNineWeeksIJustWantToKnow #IThinkIAmNineButIWillNotKnowForSureUntilADatingScan #ThisPictureIsImitatingAPictureITookOfMyselfInJanuaryWhenIMayHaveBeenSevenWeeksPregnant #ItIsWeirdThinkingHowPregnantICouldHaveBeenRightNow #IAmNotLookingForwardToBDroppingANapSoonAsILikeHavingTimeToRestAndDoMyOwnStuffWhenSheSleeps #IAmQuiteTiredAndISeemToWakeUpALotInTheNightNowButFindItHardToNapDuringTheDay #IAmNotSureIfThisIsDueToBeingPregnantOrIfItIsBecauseOfTheWeather #TheOtherDayBeforeITookTheTestTiagoSaidIMustBePregnantAsHeSawAMagpieAndSpokeToIt #WhenHeWasOutsideOfTheHospitalWaitingForNewsOnMeBeforeBWasBornHeSpokeToAMagpieForReassurance #ThisAllSoundsWeirdAndIsVeryUnlikeTiagoButIGuessInAnxiousTimesWeTakeComfortInWhatWeCan #SpeakingOfBirdsAsItHasBeenSoHotBAndMeHaveJustBeenPlayingInTheGardenALot #TheOtherDayIRealisedThatThereIsABlackbirdsNextRightByOurFavouriteSpotInTheShade #FromTimeToTimeWeHaveToMoveAsICanSeeTheParentBlackbirdsWaitingWithFoodInTheirMouths #TheyWillNotFlyToTheNestWhileWeAreAroundAsIThinkTheyThinkItIsTopSecretOrSomething #IOnlyFoundItAsIHeardTheChicksCheepingAndRealisedTheyWereReallyCloseBy #SoNowIHaveStartedToTakeBToTheParkMoreAndWeSitInTheShadeThere #ItIsLessStressfulAsInTheGardenBHasALeafInHerMouthEveryFiveSeconds #SheIsGettingCheekierEveryDay #SometimesIPretendToChaseHerAndSheLaughsThoughSheGenerallyJustCrawlsIntoADeadEnd #NanSaidThatYesterdayBTookAStepAndIDidNotReallyBelieveHer #ThenThisMorningBWasStoodUpInFrontOfMeAndThenDidStepOnce #SheIsStillBuildingUpHerStrengthButIsGettingBetterWithHerWalker #SheAlsoHasASecondToothNowWhichMustHaveBeenWhySheKeptWakingUpSoMuchOneNightLastWeek #BIsGettingMoreFidgetyAndHarderToChangeSoIDoWorryHowItWillBeIfAndWhenIAmMorePregnant #IHaveToSingHerFavouritePortugueseSongsToTryToChillHerOutButTheyDoNotAlwaysWork #IGetNervousEveryTimeIGoToTheBathroom #EspeciallyIfIHaveNotLongHadACramp #INeedToRememberThatGoodishCrampsExistTooAsItIsJustASignOfThingsStretching #IAmTryingToBeatMyselfUpLessAboutMyMotheringNow #AsLongAsIAmTryingMyBestThenThatIsAllICanDo

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Imitating B Closing Her Eyes As She Knocks Down A Tower Of Blocks (10 Weeks? / 7th June 2021)

#BHasBeenClosingHerEyesBeforeDoingLoudThingsForQuiteAWhile #ItUsedToBeThatBeforeSheDroppedHerCupFromHerHighchairSheWouldCloseThem #ILikeToSeeHowTallICanBuildATowerBeforeSheComesToKnockItOver #TheBlocksBelongToTheWalkerThatSheHas #SheIsGettingReallyGoodWithItAndSomeDaysSheWillJustKeepGoingUpAndDownTheRoomWithIt #ThoughSheStillNeedsToLearnHowToTurnItRoundAsWeHaveToDoThatForHer #SheIsAlsoGettingQuickerAtMovingAroundTheRoomWhileHoldingOntoFurniture #IAmAlrightButJustFeelingQuiteSickForMostOfTheDay #ITryToDrinkWaterRegularlyAndEatOftenButMaybeItIsMoreDownToTiredness #BKeepsWakingUpAroundFiveFortyAtTheMomentWhichIsNotMuchFun #IOftenWakeUpAtFiveByMyselfButWillThenFallBackToSleep #TheOtherDayIReallyFanciedChipsWithCurrySauceWhichIHadAndItWasGreat #ItMayHaveBeenACravingOrItMayJustHaveBeenANormalFoodFancy #IfIWatchAnythingThatShowsFoodInItBeforeGoingToBedIGetSoHungry #BSaysDuckALotNowWhichIsQuiteCute #SometimesSheSeemsToSayYuckWhichIsFunny #TalkingOfBirdsThoughHavingABlackbirdNestInTheGardenIsNotAsCoolAsIInitiallyThought #AboutFourDaysAgoICouldHearLotsOfNoiseSoILookedOutTheWindowAfterAWhileAndIScaredAMagpieAwayFromTheNest #IWasUpsetAndAssumedTheChicksWereAllDeadAndItPutMeInABadMood #ISawTheParentsTheNextDayWithWhatLookedLikeFoodInTheirMouthButIThoughtThatMaybeTheyWereBuildingANewNest #TheNextDayIWasNearbyAndIHeardCheepingThenSawABlackbirdFlyToTheNestAndIWasSoHappy #ThenLaterThatDayIHeardMoreNoiseAndLookedOutOfTheWindowExpectingToSeeAMagpieButInsteadISawADeadChickOnTheFloor #IDoNotKnowWhatHappenedButIHaveSeenNoActivityAroundTheNestSinceSoItMayHaveBeenTheLastChick #NatureIsBeautifulNatureIsCruel #TheDoctorCalledMeToAskMeQuestions #HeHasPutDownMyLastPeriodAs6WeeksAgoButIReallyDoThinkIAmTenWeeks #ThoughNowIAmStartingToDoubtMyselfAsWouldIHaveHadAPeriodSixWeeksAgoIfIWasPregnant #IGuessItWillBeAWhileUntilIHaveAScanSoWeShallHaveToSee #HeSaidItIsFineForMeToHaveAVaccinationAndNowIThinkUnderFortiesAreLimitedToWhichOnesTheyCanHaveAnyways #HeWillReferMeToTheMidwifeServiceSoHopefullyIWillReceiveALetterFromThemSoon

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